She was perhaps the most difficult dog I have ever owned, not that she was a bad dog, she just had so many issues. Loretta had numerous and costly health problems, which was doubly unfortunate because she reacted badly to anesthesia. We picked her out of the litter because she was the quiet one, but she nearly spent the rest of her waking hours barking. She was deathly afraid of storms, and could predict their arrival well before the warnings would crawl across the bottom of the TV screen. Even though she was neutered, she always attracted attentions from the opposite sex, but she would adamantly have none of it. One might think that depression is the purview of modern humans, but I can tell you dogs suffer from it also. She also stank, as many hounds do, but I came to enjoy her funk and am already missing it.
Her life did have some moments of joy though. She loved to sing and with little encouragement would throw her head back and let loose in deep soulful song. Loretta also enjoyed her time in the sun, and would follow a patch of it around the house, just like a cat. She went to great lengths to keep her self clean and had a sleek black coat that reminded me of a seal's. On hot summer days she loved to go wading in the river and swish her ears under the water, though she would not swim. She also loved nothing more than to sleep, her long limbs stretched to offer little room for anyone else. Loretta was shy, and conservative with her affections, though there were several humans, beyond her housemates, with whom she enjoyed special bonds.
Loretta entered her senior years gracefully, which was probably easier since she has always been a bit elderly. As recently as last week she was still singing her songs, and even spent time playing games with one of our cats, a most rare occurrence. When Loretta woke yesterday she was out of sorts and unsettled, not wanting to drink or eat, much. Poking around, we found a large mass on her throat that extended down to her chest. She paced most of last night searching unsuccessfully to find a comfortable sleeping position. I took her to the vet's this morning hoping the mass could be something easily drained away or reduced with medication. Dr. Marshall said that would not happen and offered a couple other options, though not sincerely realistic. The x-rays showed how the mass was constricting her trachea to only a 1/4" opening. We really had only one choice, which was to let her go. I know it is clichéd, but she did indeed die peacefully in my arms. I did not wake up this morning thinking it would be Loretta's last day, but just as she entered our lives unexpectedly, she left that way as well.
They are such a big part of our lives, it is hard to say goodbye. Know you miss her. I am so sorry Les.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry Les. She sounded like a bit of a tortured soul but you gave her a good life.
ReplyDeleteSo sorry Les, but a lovely tribute. Those that are difficult make us strong.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry to read this Les. To have a connection to a special animal is such a gift, one we accept many times in our lives (if we are lucky) even though we know chances are we'll out live them and our hearts will break.
ReplyDeleteA beautiful post Les. You and Loretta were lucky to share the time she had. I'm sorry that there is an empty place in your home and heart right now.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry for your loss.
ReplyDeleteLetting them go is always so very difficult. My condolences to you and all who are missing her today.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry, Les. What a beautiful tribute this is to sweet Loretta, who was obviously a mich-loved companion.
ReplyDeleteWhat a beautiful tribute for a special friend. It's so hard to have to let a beloved family member go....
ReplyDeleteMy deepest sympathies.
ReplyDeleteFor those of you who have not heard Loretta sing: http://atidewatergardener.blogspot.com/2009/01/loretta-sings-with-herself.html
Still brings tears to my eyes.
Taking animals into our lives is so risky. They become almost as beloved as children and yet they live such a short time. Your post conveys so elegantly what the reward is. I am so sorry.
ReplyDeleteA very touching tribute to a most special dog. As I've noted, Loretta was lucky you selected her and I know your time with her was rewarding. I'm sorry my allergies won't ever allow me to have a dog. (But I did have Timmy the Wonder Turtle for 10 years.)
ReplyDeleteI've been through this before with my dogs and it's so painful. But the joy of their lives is always greater than the depth of our sorrow. Thank you for adopting and keeping a shelter dog. :o)
ReplyDeleteA fitting memorial for Loretta. Though I didn't know her, I feel I do now.
ReplyDeletePoor old girl. They share our lives for such a short time, but we are so much the richer for it.
ReplyDeleteLes, I'm so sorry about your loss. Loretta was clearly well loved. You must miss her terribly. My heart goes out to you and your family.
ReplyDeleteCondolences. She sounds like a lovable character, even if difficult.
ReplyDeleteSo sorry. I lost an old girl last year and Hoover the year before that. It's painful. Keep remembering she won the shelter-dog lottery.
ReplyDeleteLes, sorry for your loss. I, too have a difficult dog, and I she sounds quite similar to Watson in personality as well as medical issues. And they both like to sleep a lot, but really, who doesn't? I'm glad you were able to help her pass peacefully and gave her a long and loved life.
ReplyDeleteI am sorry - never easy to make the decision to let them go.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry for your loss.
ReplyDeleteSo sad Les! I am sure it must be heartbreaking. What a lovely and touching tribute you wrote her. It brought tears to my eyes.
ReplyDeleteI feel your sorrow today. Saying Goodbye to a beloved pet is never easy. I am so happy that your family found Loretta and that she found you as well. Not many people find it in their hearts to care for a "Special Needs". So from One animal lover to another, I thank you for sharing this wonderful story....
ReplyDeleteLes, so sad to hear about your loss. Thanks for sharing this lovely remembrance of Loretta.
ReplyDeleteLes, what a beautiful remembrance post. Dogs bring out the best in us. You have been richly rewarded by Loretta.
ReplyDeleteYou've written such a beautiful tribute, Les. It's been sweet getting to know Loretta over the years through your posts and pictures of her here...I'm sorry she's gone.
ReplyDeleteLes, Loretta was a lucky girl to be adopted into a family that allowed her to be who she was... quirks and all. We share the same moving experience as we lost our 13-year old lab a month ago. We're down to one very old kitty now.
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